DRUGS A-Z

I`ve  often said that no one has died of  LSD, which is true. Except for the legendary CIA`s  members suicide (Read the older chapter ”It`s all in your head”) My perception is that it`s a drug  worth taking a risk for, considering the gain.  As the more intelligent or artistically inclined you are, probably the more insights you may gain, but it even can be an excellent gain for even the most lost of the souls, such as a violent criminal or a “suit”. 

Remember never to take it if you have or had ANY medical mental problems.  LSD may trigger a relapse.  Take LSD/mushrooms with the people you love and only in the most comfortable of the settings, where you don`t have to worry about anyone coming in on you (say parents). You may have trouble communicating with any of the people, who haven`t taken it, while under the influence.  Take it out in the nature on a perfect day, preferably in a garden with a lot of flowers. Take some time to take in the divine beauty of the ”gods” creation- many have chosen to turn vegetarian and spiritualistic after only one trip.  Do not underestimate the value of a ”bad trip” though, it may be a nightmarish deep look at yourself and your values and the world around you.  You may realize that you forgot about all the important things in life and stuck in the rat race, making money for some chief.  You may see how cruel were you to your wife or that you`ve neglected your child. Often you are rewarded with a feeling of divine love and peace at the end of even a heavy trip. LSD was used to successfully treat alcoholics and violent people, but I would advise against it- not without a knowledgeable therapist. And as with everything- don`t abuse it, despite it being non addictive and losing its potency/effect – different people are very different, so take it easy.

However  it is not a victimless ”crime”, as I thought it to be may be.  I`ve managed to forget  Sid Barrett from Pink Floyd.  After taking 300 LSD tabs (read 600-900 doses at the present day potency!) It was said the best by the great band themselves in their tribute song  ”Shine on you crazy diamond!”

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.

Shine on you crazy diamond.

Now there’s a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.

You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom,

blown on the steel breeze.

Come on you target for faraway laughter,

come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!

You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.

Shine on you crazy diamond.

Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.

Shine on you crazy diamond.

Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,

rode on the steel breeze.

Come on you raver, you seer of visions,

come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!!!

Video:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNhHV03vVCk  (Sid`s first trip)

Mind you, they  sang about the result of his state as being ” You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom  you reached for the secret too soon”. , but the LSD overdose was definitely the trigger of him landing in this state permanently, until he died at the age of 65 and this, I`m sure describes his state well:  ”Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light”   

This quote speaks to me literally, by the way: ”… you raver, you seer of visions,  you piper, you prisoner . J

So yes- take it as a sacrament as a greatest teaching and a revelation- with the deepest respect.

Well…
Thanks first of all for still checking the page out- I have been neglecting it for a while, but I was keeping myself busy working and having a flew…

Oh yeah!
I gave an interview today to one of the Swedish national radio stations (P3). The heavily edited/shortened version of what I`ve said was included in the evening news under ”The New Governmental Program, aimed at keeping the youth from joining the criminal gangs”.  I was not censored, mind you- just heavily clipped, on the audio editing table and despite my denying it 3 times, during the interview, I was presented as “Alexei, an ex-gangster”.
I was asked:
-What do you think about this new government program?
And here is what I answered (slightly polished and translated from a poor Swedish into a half decent Englih)
- First of all this government`s attempt at occupying the youth in order to keep them from the drugs and crime is nothing new- it has been done over and over again and I`ve participated in it, forced to take part in the artificially created “jobs” for the existential minimum (welfare) money. My guilt of being a drain on the society and feeling of being worthless, was reinforced by the fact, that I was contributing absolutely nothing by spendind 8 hours/day doing… I`m not sure what:
 My “job” was to glue together wooden planks- hours on end, day after day, in order to keep me from doing/selling drugs, as a part of my rehabilitation program. I was producing the low quality parts for a furniture company. Parts that were never to be used.  Something that a conveyer belt, a production line machine would do 100 times faster and with a superior quality. My work was pointless. The absence of meaning is what drove me to the heavy drug abuse and I was finding myself stuck in doing something just as pointless as I considered my life to be, prior to this “occupational program”. It was a question of time, before I was back to my old ways with a vengeance, even more disillusioned and angry, than before. So it all depends on how this program will be applied this time.

P.S. Was scanning through the pictures, that I`ve published a while ago, when I`ve noticed a “Scientology” banner. Just so that you know:  I am in no way promoting them, the same is true about any and every add published on this blog. IF anything is to be ever sold/advertised here: it will be done first and foremost through my mentioning a product or a service in one of the chapters, after I have tried and approved it.

DRUG A-Z

The intro.

I`ve never have properly introduced the whole blog, have I?  Now I`m planning a major reorganizing, editing and changing the whole feel and the look of the blog- it will be packed with photos, acting as the illustrations for the chapters. There will be a bit less of the ”free consciousness flow” and more of the shorter paragraphs, right to the point.  I will still pursue the two major ideas though, that the whole”Drugs A-Z” is all about:

1.    Drugs, chemicals, signal substances, addictions, pleasure seeking, religion, art, music, politics, feelings, mental disorders: everything is one way or another connected to the drugs/altered state of mind or as I`ve called it: we live in a Dope Civilization and it becomes as such more and more as the time progresses. From the children popping prescription amphetamines, tranquilizers and anti depressants, to the greatest works of art, music, literature, philosophy or the political movements being born in the altered minds or indirectly influenced by one drug or another. Think of a decade, then think of a drug:40-es- booze, 50-es-amphetamines, 60-es-LSD, 70-cocaine, 80-heroine, 90- ecstasy, then think of a music style, art, fashion, politics, social attitudes.  See my point?

2.    Philosophy is the search for the truth (however one of the points in philosophy, which I agree with, is that there is no objective, final truth- just a justified points of view) - still I`d like to encourage a little philosopher in all of my readers, since it is the part of being a conscious being, something that differentiates us from the animals. Philosophy makes a difference between living a life and existing.  All of us use philosophy on a daily basis and it is in no way should have that elite professor-vibe around it. Think for yourself and constantly question! If I can encourage this way of perceiving life in one person only- this blog has done its job. However, I really plan to beat Blondinbella (#1 Swedish blogger) and prove to myself, that matching ones socks with the shoes is not the only and the single most important thing, that the young people are interested in.  This blog is just as much about my search for the truth and is a constant work in progress, so get on board- get pissed off at me or have an  ”A-ha! Wicked- wow!” - moment.

Why DrugA-Z?

Drug- phonetically”friend” in my mother tongue (Russian) - that`s what drugs were for me and so, so, so much more.

D.A.Z. –are my initials: Dimitrievich Alexei Zgerski

A-Z –an encyclopedic notion of the drugs being an “Omni- subject”.  It`s all about everything.

(Hence is the name.)

 www.drugaz.blog.com is the first sketch/blueprint of the”Drugs A-Z” imperia. Get on board- write a comment, send a photo, draw a picture, mix an intro background melody, give an advice, flip a finger. You see: I am not a very arrogant guy, but I do believe that I can do better, than Blondinbella and unless I start dealing drugs through the blog- I have no financial interest in it all: only the belief in that despite all the attempts to stupefy the youth- we, as people still can and even like to think about other stuff, than consuming the ”stuff”.   

*First draft.